Body conscious

This topic is quite a sensitive one for me because ever since I was 13 I've always been body conscious. I used to care about what other people think of me e.g. the way I look and behave. 

I thought I was ugly because I didn't look like the girls in the magazines, adverts on TV, or actresses in movies. I knew they were fake but still couldn't help comparing myself to them. Luckily for me I've never had an eating disorder before but I've even been bullied in the past because of the way I look and that is what made me feel more self conscious till this day.  

My teen years were my worst and best years in my opinion. When I hit 16 I learned how to love myself and started losing weight (in a good way) because I used to be chubby but not overweight. I still thought I could have made some minor improvements along the way. 

When I was 17 I remember being 55kg at 4"11. When I turned 18 I became 47kg at 5" and right now at 22 I'm 51kg at 5"1. I lost weight because I followed Paul Mckenna's fool proof system. Anyone can do it and if you want to know more I'll make a video explaining the system. 

The way it worked for me was that I was 13 and sitting in front of the TV when all of a sudden I saw Paul Mckenna hosting a show called "I can make you thin". I didn't believe my eyes when he went through the techniques as they were all shockingly simple! I decided to get a piece of paper and write down the techniques he was describing then slowly applied each rule one at a time. I didn't even feel like I was losing weight but it was a natural, gradual process which worked out well in the end. 

I then decided to buy his book explaining the system as a reference to go back to just in case I feel like I'm going off the rails again. Here is a link for it if you want to see where I bought mine from and I would recommend it to anyone because it's easy to follow, anyone can do it, and it has a high success rate.

My feelings about my weight have constantly been the centre of attention in my life because I sometimes feel like I look too big in photos where I can see a bit of bulge from my tummy or maybe a double chin. I always thought I didn't look right in comparison to my friends who I really thought were thinner than me when in reality, we were just about the same.

I also watched a programme where a stylist called Gok Wan looked at the way children of our generation think about their bodies and it made me feel like I wasn't the only one. I can't quite remember the name but when I do I'll post a link. What I like the most about this was that he used to have weight problems and got bullied when he was younger which made me feel like I can relate to him on a personal level. 

Another interesting programme I watched is called Super Sized vs Super Skinny where an overweight and underweight person are put together in a feeding clinic for a couple of days and swap diets. In my opinion it's quite different from a normal weight loss show where someone is given a diet after looking at their bad habits. They instead try to see the world from the other person's point of view and experience their daily life which allows them to put themselves in each other's shoes. 

Right now I'm happy to say that I'm comfortable in my own skin after years of thinking I'm not good enough for any aspect of life simply because of the way I see myself in comparison to everyone else. 

However I do take interest in things that benefit my life instead of punishing myself and the same can be done for anyone looking to improve their quality of life and weight loss. Things I do are:

• Doing a type of sport which helps to boost my confidence and also become a new hobby to pursue.
• Making the way I see my progress more realistically and less harshly by remembering that you can only ever keep moving forward. Don't worry if you ever do slip up because it depends on your attitude towards it rather than what you actually did.  
• And watching motivational speakers which can be emotionally uplifting for the days I'm feeling down. 

So I hope you guys got more of an insight to one of the things I thought I would never talk about in a million years! Please be sure to subscribe to my YouTube channel as I might talk about this topic in a video and I'll be seeing you guys later!  

Love Nina xXx